"I find it is easier for me to do 'what is expected of me'. I like to please. I like to be helpful and jump in where it is needed. Trouble with that is that in order to please someone, I have to actually pretend that there is someone outside of me. And there isn't.

What a wake-up call.

I have come to the branching of the road and I am walking the way appointed me. That is really all that matters. Now I just have to trust."

I just read this quote and it brought home the people pleasing thing that some friends talk about. I was reading "I like to please" and I had to look at it for a moment. I don't actually like to please. It feels really sucky. I do it because I think I'm separate and if I don't there's going to be consequences. I'm believing in the impossible. I've forgotton who I am and forgotten my Source which only extends and sees only love or a call for love - it doesn't really do anything at all. It just Is It would give anything to anyone because it lacks nothing and is whole and complete and sees only that. It's not behavioural. And I can feel my mind coming up with all these situational but what about this and that and in that situation and IT is still the same. Form is nothing to IT. Content is everything. Thankyou Father. Thy Will Be Done.

In the Beginning

I've just been reading over some of the things written in this blog and kind of saying wow - I wish I was receiving the benefit of "my" own teaching. I read other guys blogs and I really hear the voice of God speak to me through them and hear them as really clear and I'm reading this blog and hearing the same voice. The resistance in my mind seems to dominate and my Friends are reminding me "It's nothing." "Nada." It has no power - no reality and is gone the instant you say so. I'm ready for a miracle. I give in and lose faith and give in to despair very easily. And these are all thoughts I'm willing to let go of now and rest instead. Thankyou Father.

Jesus has been playing Neil Young's Harvest in my ear today. One verse anyway.

Did she wake you up to tell you that
It was only a change of plan?
Dream up, dream up, let me fill your cup
With the promise of a man.

I don't want to say too much about that - as I begin to attempt to put the message into words at the moment - it's being lost in translation and I lose touch with the essence of what He's trying to communicate through the lyric to me.

He's telling me - it's no big deal. He'll do it for me if I let Him. Step back. It's only a change of plan/purpose and there's nothing to worry about it. Dream Lightly. He's got it handled with the assuredness of the One with strength and certainty of the Father. Be of good cheers.

(I kept pressing cheers instead of cheer and then trying to correct it and pressing cheer again. There was a feeling tone to the cheers - it was inclusive - like a ripple effect of joy that rippled out and flowed to everyone and joined with all.) YES - Be of Good Cheers.